17
Nov 03

precious

often i find the time

to look deep inside

and know that at the end

you are always there

sweet precious dear

soothing floating

within a sea of hush

tranquility you bring

to my troubled mind

and heavy heart

so believe me when

muttered from my lips

i’d enjoy being

anywhere as long

as it’s with you

sweet precious dear


03
Nov 03

asylum

it waved across me, making insinuations and revealing truths. i couldn’t comprehend it at first, its writhing and screeching, its sound of a thousand sirens infecting my eardrums in bizarre ways. not bizarre in how it infected me, but bizarre in how it made me feel – like a worm saturated with rain water, unaware that it would soon would be shriveled on hot black asphalt the day after. i climbed out of this primordial awareness, completely phased and no longer oriented to what i knew previous.

blow by blow and step by step it dripped off of me reeking of foolishness and pride, staining the ground i walked into a black swamp, festering like mucus, decay and carrion. i stumbled in the knowing, not seeing past the darkness, clawing through the drench. it became tiresome; my legs flooded with lactic acid burning and searing, prying pain into muscle sinew and bone.

and there she was, relief in a blinding desert. i crawled into her comfort and everything melted away. she made it alright despite my intentions, and i subsided in the cradle of her unrelenting asylum.


09
Oct 03

amusement

i’ve noticed that there are a lot of people knitting! stupendous! i need a new scarf – well, not really but a new one would be simply shnazzy!

this morning’s obsessions with looking for halloween adventures beyond the exhausted “haunted hayrides” led me to a few interesting websites (1 2 3). i’d want to hit a few of these places (especially ESP) but i’m not sure how long listening to sappy ghost stories and dealing with the usual predictable scare tactics can maintain my interest. i discussed with jason if he’d rather just exploring some interesting “freaky” places, which eventually steered our conversation to chippewa lake park which is an old abandoned amusement park. having been closed since it’s 100th anniversary sometime in the 1970’s has left it in a frightening state of disarray, not to mention being at the mercy of vandals and arsonists. since it’s in the middle of nowhere it’s probably a safe place, but its very exiting to think what adventures might procure exploring such a place in the dead of night!

if you are interesting in learning and seeing picture of other abandoned amusement parks, check some out here.

my carpal tunnel has been acting up. regular use of my GBA SP and playing FFTA is probably the main culprit – having less than stellar discipline when it comes to playing a fantastic game only a few minutes instead of several hours a sessions probably doesn’t help either.