11-8-96

Why why why
     I don't know.
I feel so lost sometimes, I feel myself
dwelling on feelings of lonliness
so often that everything seems
too trivial.
     I try and try to shake this
depression that haunts me, I try
to escape from its ensnarling trap
around me but like always I fail.
I brace myself as I feel its potent
venom settle in my body.

At the point life is meaningless.

Even as I find myself prisoner to
the dogmative virus, I try and resist its
commands - I fight and fight and fight.
Failure. All over again.