i am in amusement park. there is comfortable weather, and it’s not noisy. i am sitting on a park bench, looking at a rollercoaster. i look to the right and suzanne is sitting beside me. she tells me that she’s happy while my attention turns back to the rollercoaster in front of us. the i turn to the left and anele is sitting beside me. she tells me that i am happy while i continue to look at her.
she climbs up on my lap and throws arms around me. she whispers things in my ear that i don’t understand. she reaches under my shirt and into my pants to pleasure me. i reciprocate.
she tells me interpol is over there. i look behind us and see him waiting in line for the carousel. she pulls my hand and we walk into a tent.
dissolve into me sitting in a room. i am surfing the internet, reading a guestbook. i realize it is a guestbook for anele, mostly men hitting on her or inferring sexual innuendoes. i laugh knowing i am one of the few. still, shock settles in. i look at different peoples entries and realize a lot of people i know within the blogging community are responding. i find her url (i remember it being based on a pet name i used to call her, ihanaihana or something) and i go to her website. there is a headshot of her there, the background is a light olive green. she appears to be wearing a white t-shirt and the necklace she gave me. she is visibly licking her teeth. entry underneath picture is something along the lines of “i miss him”.