every opportunity i had to be in front of a computer, i took it. when i wasn’t doing some grocery shopping, or traversing the perils of bed frame assembly over at my dad’s place, i was thinking about surfing across website links. i was thinking whether this graphic would have enough pixel width and whether she had gotten my email.
an old time addiction has returned and has returned in full force.
i don’t think it’s a bad thing. it’s kept me away from things that usually end up being non-productive; namely sitting in front of a television for hours on end, trying to decide which of the four steven seagal movies on would be the least damaging for me to watch.
i went swimming the other day. in an environment where i once used to feel like a fish flowing to and fro exploring the magical depths of the ocean, i now felt like a gelatinous donut that had been handled carelessly at the side of the neighborhood pool. not to say i am out of shape… wait a minute, i am out of shape. that’s why i was swimming in the first place. but you know what? swimming was a lot fun.
writing and designing again has been a lot of fun as well. i wasn’t really doing stuff for myself for quite awhile. i was busy doing this and that and not feeling good about it, and whenever the chance would come up to do something that required the least amount of discipline or responsibility, i was there. somewhere though, i remembered how fun being creative used to be. i remembered how it helped keep my mind active, how it helped in my career, and how it helped breed motivation just by being.
i’m not completely out of it though – not by a long shot, and i know it. but i’ll tell you what: it feels pretty good to think i’ve taken a step in the right direction. if anything, it’s helped me fill up on ammo for my self-deprecation. heh.
days without a smoke: 1 month, 2 days.
how many times a— asked me something without initially picking up on my sarcasm: 5
today’s random surf: volatile.org, andretorrez, minced chicken LO.