life observations, thoughts

i stood silently in the alleyway between my house and the academy of the dance, staring at the silent black of the night sky – this was something that i enjoyed doing on random nights for no apparent reason. i was appreciating the fact that i was able to wear shorts, sandals and a t-shirt and still feel very comfortable. i didn’t realize the strength of my temptation; nestled neatly between my middle and pointer fingers rode a lit cigarette, its parasitic smoke rising into the atmosphere only after it wrestled and wrangled through my unsuspecting alveoli.

my trek through the neighborhood a few hours earlier in the evening produced several encounters with black cats. one house in particular had accumulated a small congregation of them – as i passed by quietly humming several stabbing westward tunes i chanced to hear earlier in the day, they all sat there seemingly unconcerned with my presence, silent and observing. i took notice that since none of them were moving none could be crossing my path, which instantly cancelled out any thoughts that bad luck might fall upon me. right?

i’d like to think that in most cases bad luck only finds people who are looking for it, but you never know.

*knocks on wood*

closing my eyes i see my young self biking around the neighborhood without a care in the world. my friends and i would race against the wind like speed demons, shouting at the top of our lungs and celebrating a carefree attitude that we had no idea would eventually disappear once we all got older. the melting sun would run its vibrant red yellow purple and blue across the sky, a perpetual sunset hanging over us that made it seem like the day would never end.

i guess when you’re that young, you think everything lasts forever.

oh, i am so behind on certain things.

i waited until the last second to deal with all my car stuff and the end of april is encroaching with such a frightening pace that is stifling any efforts on my part to think clearly about the subject. i need to get freakin’ PA state emission testing done, AND i need to somehow get my my plate tags renewed before april rolls over. i’m thinking i could drive over to the local auto tag store, but it seems so intimidating (most things dealing with cars seem so to me!) that i’m always at a loss of what to say when i go in there.

the consumption of alcohol has been on mind every night lately – its temptations have been beating at me and i have fallen to its calls almost 100%. let’s see… last wednesday, friday, saturday, sunday, monday, yesterday wednesday, today thursday, definitely tomorrow and definitely this coming saturday. sunday is going to be my recharge day, so… with midas being closed on sunday that only leaves this coming monday, tuesday and wednesday for me to get all my car shit out of the way. bah!

(my god, i sound like such a lush! i’m not, i swear!)

work is work. lawyer stuff this, rich noonan stuff that, architect firm this and that. all mind-numbing and tedious things, ’nuff said!

all the boring stuff out of the way.

i am going to admit that for the most part i enjoy talking to members of the female gender more than males. i’ve often wondered why but haven’t really come to any conclusions; i figure go with the flow, right? sometimes i find it difficult though – even though i feel like i have the best intentions and pretty much just want to get to know that person better, i’m always analyzing the situation and often try to word things in such a way so that it doesn’t look or sound like i’m hitting on them. nothing clouds a good conversation like listening to someone through the “this person is just trying to get into my pants” filter. but could i be mistaken?

so what’s the deal ladies? if a man just starts randomly talking to you out of nowhere – whether it be online or offline – do you immediately think that they are trying to get their mack on?

i was going to write more, but i am spent. off to bed i go. more good, juicy and traumatic stuff coming soon – excellent!