and, i find myself lusting after someone that i really don’t know, who doesn’t know me, someone oh so far away. there would be no real way to get to know each other with the current set of variables – even with long, exciting and cerebral conversations – not without being in person and experiencing the intimate nods of a yes in agreement, or the gentle caress of a comfortable and drawn out moment of silence.
but, it is lust after all. maybe if it lasts longer, if it lasts with the gentle shake of time, then maybe. possibility.
in the meantime i will walk slowly, tread quietly, for the heart can be a gentle and fragile thing – dropped too many times within a certain amount of time and it may prove to be too difficult to mend.
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yoga yesterday: kicked my ass. sure, some of my friends laughed and heckled me with taunts of “that is so gay”, “man, that is really gay” and “dude, gay!” but that doesn’t matter. i wasn’t going to knock something that i had no real experience with, especially since it genuinely interests me. and like i said, it kicked my ass. i was a little worried when i read people saying that it definitely wasn’t for beginners (like myself) but care convinced that should i keep at it, that i would easily get used to it.
it’s new and it will take time, but i think i like it. i think i can be all about something that incubates thoughts of good health, good body, good mind.